Because I love you. I always have, and always will.

GLASS TEMPLE!!!

The prettiest temple I've ever been to. I swear.

Will blog about it some other time, though. Stay tuned! (:

Is it just me, or is it like the love season or something? Why in the world is everybody in love - all of a sudden. Maybe everyone just got hit by the cupid? Way to go, cupid. Grrr. I'm not being a sadist here or anything. I just feel a tad bit weird. My friends being in a relationship ; it's turning my life good and miserable at the same time. Don't ask me how, I can't figure it out myself either. On the other dial, there are a few bunch of people who happen to GMH. Daddy who's willing to get up early on a lazy Sunday morning to surprise mum with some homemade breakfast while she was away for yoga lessons - Hareen's profile on FaceBook and MSN being all about Suba - Sukanya getting the mushiest text messages from her soon-to-be-boyfriend (not gonna mention his name here) - My neighbour buying his extremely short wife a brand new Mitsubishi Grandis (where she uses a pillow to sit onto while driving). Guys like this make me jealous. I don't think jealousy is the right word, though. I just feel a little less pampered? Rawr. Damnnn I'm one spoilt brat. Wait, I don't know how that fits in. But, oh well.

I love how we can just talk everything out ; from the places we want to go to, the things we wanna do, the dreams we have and wanna achieve, the kind of life we want together, and just what's to come in the near future.

I believe that this moment is going to last forever. I know I'm not a little kid anymore ; I can't just close my eyes, hoping time would stop or something. I'm growing up. We are both growing up. I know things might and will change, and we're going to have more laughs and cries but I don't care, because the only thing that gets me through almost everything everyday is you being my best friend .You're special to me and I believe we could be so much more than this. I wonder if you feel the same. And that's what kills me and you don't even know it. I just want to know if we'd ever be amount to anything so I know that I'm not sacrificing everything just for nothing. Right now, all I know is that I love you with all my heart.

Sunkissed

All these happened on a Friday - It's Saturday, as I'm typing this on a Thursday's draft. Great. Urgh. Went to school feeling groggy and wet. The weather that morning totally reflected my mood. Gloomy. Did not sleep well the night before. Panic attacks of mine leads to fever. Just a minute fever, though. I hate fever. Fever causes my fingers (more like my hands) to tremble like fcuk. And that means I cannot grab hold onto anything without putting in like tons of effort. Imagine how long it took me to like text some caffeine-related info at 6 in the morning - I nearly died. On the other dial, school was absofcukinglutely good. Someone was absent. And her absence is the presence of the constant laughter of mine in school. Damnnn. I felt so good right then. I was all hyped up. Anyhow, nearly half the class was like absent. Study leave? No way. I bet a handful of them were probably online. Or fast asleep. Trust me, I know my classmates. Vicky, on the other hand, probably watched too much football. And he couldn't get up the next morning? Oh, well. I don't miss you, Vicky. Not anymore, though. Muahahax.

Yes, I don't like combing my hair. And I don't really bother about my hair in school. There isn't exactly really anyone for me to woo, so yeah. Why bother? Oh, and I don't button like the second button on my blouse, as well. I'm just so used to it. So yeah. You got a problem with that? Rawr.

Camwhored during recess. With my cellphone. I forgot to like bring my camera to school. Wait, I don't really know where in the world I left my camera. Oh, it's probably under my bed - with all the dust bunnies. Grrr. The button (to like snap pictures) on my cellphone isn't functioning, so it's like I gotta turn on the 2 sec self-timer for every single shot. Haihhh. Never am I bringing my phone into the shower with me again. Okay, scratch that. I only hope. No promises on this one. Oh, and I ain't glowing. I sit next to a window ; where the sun shines directly onto my flawless face. Not.

And that's how much I look like when I wake up. I don't like my morning face. I have never liked my morning face. Oh, and I never will. Grrr. I look more like crap with tiny eyes. Oh, well. Picture was taken in Hong Kong. Random much? I suddenly have this extreme urge to like fly away to Hong Kong - never to return. Oh, and anyways, mum thinks I'm majorly stressed out or something. She brought me to the clinic and even got me medicine from the pharmacy nearby. People, Preetibah never gets stressed out for exams. Seriously. Maybe a little? LOL. Anyhow, my body temperature isn't exactly back to normal yet, but it did improve. Doc said my internal body temp is a little higher, and so is my blood pressure. He can't exactly figure out what I'm suffering from either. Probably bipolar disorder? Or acute psychosis? Rawr. How do I like tell 'em that panic attack is the main reason, nothing else! Ishhh. Oh, and I think I wanna be a doctor. What do you think? :D

Diwali Night in Kuala Lumpur

Just got tagged on FaceBook. Thanks cousin for uploading unglam pictures of me. You the best. Grrr. Thamilla only tagged five pictures of it. I wonder where the other 9858760246 pictures went. Oh, well. This shall do wonders for now. Oh, and by the way, I'm not that fat. My outfit was a major flop. Should have worn that dress I brought along. Sigh.

Thamilla calls this mafia. I call this fugly.

Easter bunny much? I swear they made me do this! The bunny hands, the teeth, the braces, the eyes, and the nose! Everything! Rawr. Oh, and check out those fingers at the side of my head ; middle fingers finally put to good use. 

Thamilla calls this egyptians. I call this samurai shit. Check out my super straight hands. Thank you yoga, you are finally creating wonders in my life :D

The most painful shot ever. I had to like bend my knees for this. They wanted to create a staircase (?) effect. So yeah.

I am the shortest. I have a 16-year old cousin who is taller than me. FML.

I look like one of those people getting their photo taken for like a marriage photoshoot. Super formal shot of me ; no? Told ya I had no mood to pose and stuff. Trust me, that smile was fake. Urgh.

I Wanna Know Things I'm Not Suppose To Know - But It Somewhat Scares The Jack Shit Outta Me

I will think of what I want for the future and not moan on what I've not been getting all this while. I will make things happen. I shall achieve what I believe in. Anyways, I think the best thing for me to do right now, is to stay quiet about my plans for the future and allow the others to dominate the conversation. There's nothing in this world that's gonna ruin my future. My well-planned future. And there's nothing in this world that could possibly separate me and him.

School - The Scariest Place I've Been To. You?

Too bad we don't really celebrate Halloween here in Malaysia. I would really love to dress up and go around knocking on doors for candies! Rawr. Anyways, I'm dead beat right now. Open house over at Suba's place. Just ended. Ended with a dance. Camwhored like fcuk. Pictures will be on Facebook soon. Rawr. I hate how unglamorous pictures of me make their way to Facebook before all else. Anyhow, I'm feeling much better now. Dancing really helps me keep my mind off some stuff. Should dance more often. Right. Nevermind. Oh and of course, I probably couldn't have survived without baby. Constant texts and phone calls did the trick. Thanks baby. I owe you tons ♥

I Have My Heart Wrapped All Around You

Going up to KL in a while. Not exactly hyped up or whatsoever. And no, I'm not PMSing. I've got my reasons alright. Right now, all I can do is hope for the best. I seriously hope nothing goes wrong while I'm away. Haixxx. Oh and by the way, I hate it when panic attack strikes. It just hurts. So much :/

I've got a huge communication trouble that can spoil everything. Seriously.

Baby's just so nice and like super patient with me. Oh Lord. Baby, you the best. If you're like reading this, I want you to know that : Baby, I love you.

Benefit's Pink Lip Gloss ; MYR 75

I need sponsors. Gahhh :/

I failed my driving test like for the second time today. Failing my driving test is just unbearable already. So much for being confident. So much for driving over to Jusco this weekend. So much for driving up to school every morning. Sigh. Called up baby the moment I failed. Was supposed to meet up with baby this weekend. And it ain't gonna happen no more. At least not until SPM's over. Sobs. I feel so sorry for myself. I broke down. Totally collapsed onto the floor in my room. Mum had to like drag me to bed and like wake me up and stuff. Mum was a little disapppointed in me. An so was daddy. Plus, money doesn't grow on trees, y'know. Haihhh. Slept off the whole day. Didn't wanna stay up and stuff. I just had to like distract myself away from reality. So yeah. I was basically emo-ing. Gosh. Baby is just so awesome. Baby made me feel so good just after one phone call. I love how he makes me feel special. He's my source of strength. Really. I'mma make sure I pass my driving test on the 9th. 9th of November ; I am looking forward to it already. I'mma pass, and make baby proud. Then I'mma drive him around and stuff :D

Diwali Party ; More pictures on FaceBook

Hello! Gonna make this one quick update before I go on a major hiatus or something. Diwali party was a blast. Turned out awesome. It was a little barbeque party. So yeah. Thanks everyone! I mean, to those who turned up and all. And to those who didn't, I am so smad (sad and mad) at you. Rawr. I joke I joke. We'll go out some other time, alright? Loves ♥ Buddy! And her little sister, Jia Yi. Trust me, she's like one of the coolest 8 year-olds that I've ever came across with. Major loves. Just look at her. Cute, isn't she? Cai Ling can't be spared either. With a face like that, Tyra ought to be ashamed. They managed to crash into my room while I was busy downstairs. Way to go, everyone! Including the boys. Thank God no one got an eyesore leaving my room. Phew! See this, baby? No one got an eyesore! LOL. Anyways, camwhore session in my room. Tons of pictures. It'll be painful to upload all of 'em all here. Anyhow, here's like a part of my crowd that turned up. Ahmad Izzuddin Shah (my jogging partner!), Andrew Ho, Kenneth (Andrew's little brother), Kalai Arasi, Sukanya, Shalini, Rabeeka, Cai Ling, and Adeline dearest (: Not in the picture : Magesini, Ainaa, Aisah, Jason Loo, Shafiq, Mustaqim, Andrew's little sister, Jia Yi, Grace Tee, Shafiah, Shahira, Rihanna, Surain and Dhiviyan. Can't think of anyone else already. Sorry if I left out your name, alright? Preetibah still loves you. I wish I took more pictures of the party. My battery just had to die on me. Urgh. Anyways, credits to Adeline for all the pictures! And thank you Andrew for being the paparazzi of the day. There are like tons of ss-looking pictures of me in my camera. When did you even manage to snap? Rawr! Oh, and more pictures!

This one was taken while I was on on like on the computer. Pit-stopped by the computer to like check on FaceBook and stuff, but I somewhat got carried away. Was chatting with baby and webcamming with Suba when Adeline came over and took this shot. Cai Ling's favourite shot, btw.

Was like on the phone yaw. Oh and that's Adeline's China, btw. I own a China too! Major loves yaw.

Oh, and I think this is like my first ever photo with Izzuddin. Goodness. He's one shy ass. LOL. Oh, and I never knew he was like one head taller than me. Rawr!

One last shot together before they left. Sobs.

Cai Ling looks as though she's red-headed here. Pretty! (:

Kelly Clarkson's brand new single : Already Gone ; scares the hell outta me. I hate the lyrics. Fcuking scary. I don't like. I turn off my radio each time the song is like played. Goodness. Somebody help me! :S

Current mood : Normal. Got up like around 9 (?) this morning. Mum bawled at me to get outta bed. Got ready in like around 2 hours, and left for my uncle's place. In Seri Alam. Far, yes, I know. Ta-dah ; outfit of the day. I'm into dresses now. See? I am girlish, okay? Except, I haven't actually mastered the art of a lady-like posture. For example, when I sit down or something. Rawr. Convent girls, I know I know. We will never learn :D Oh, and check out my huge ass eyes. C'mon, how can someone not love eyeliners. Like seriously! They're like the best invention. Ever. Okay, wait. I don't wear make-up often. Who am I to judge, again? :/ Hello, cousin. I think you're annoying. I'm so locking my room door for good when I leave for college next year. This way, you can never again dig & rummage & mess up my closet and try on my brand new clothes without seeking my permission / jump on my queen-size bed / try on my fake diamond-studded earrings / my inexpensive shades. Like never again. I repeat, NEVER AGAIN. Right, sorry. Anyways, moving on. From Seri Alam, I left to Selesa Jaya (?) to meet up with some other relatives (: Goodness. More relatives, more food. Damnation. After all the food and stuff, I nearly zonked off on the sofa. I was effing bored, and I finally came up with something productive to do. There! Doing what I do best! Camwhore! There's like tons of ss-looking pictures of me all over my cellphone. It'll take me ages to upload 'em. Hence, only one for now. My current favourite picture. And yeah, thanks, I know I have goddamn huge eyes. I wish I had smaller eyes, though. Whatever the hell happened to the Chinese gene within me? Haix. Major haix. Some condominium. I forgot what it's called. The view of the sky from the 3rd floor balcony. Those little dots on the picture above aren't dust specks. They're actually birds. Like flying all around. I think I found a new hobby : bird-watching. Okay, que to say : Preetibah, you're so weird.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI (:

No open house this year. Sobs. Major sobs. I miss my cousins. Grrr. Anyways, I feel pretty much the same. It feels just like any other old day. Going out at night later. Heading to Kalai's for dinner, and then I'm probably gonna pit-stop at Izzuddin's place or something. Raya Open House on Deepavali. Righttt. I'm so bored, I'm going around YouTube with nothing productive in mind. Damn. No one's online either. Busy partying, maybe? Rawr! I'm currently on Facebook. Yeah, Restaurant City-ing. My restaurant looks great. Pink tiles with matching pink wallpaper! Much loves! ♥♥♥

This is me. I have pretty pink eyes. I like. Anyways, I think contact lenses are a little too over-rated. Oh yeah, pink is such a natural eye colour. Pfft. Fcuk it people.

MY SUPER AWESOME PINK WALLPAPER! Thanks love! (:

Okay, and speaking of Facebook, my only source of entertainment, that is. Here's a little something.

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I got a message from this someone. Klidasan Nyteran? Not in my friends' list yaw. Anw, yeah, that's like the convo between us. In case you're wondering why I even bothered replying ; here, lemme tell you. I suffer from major STML. Hence, I thought I might have known her from somewhere or something. So yeah. I know. FML to the core. Oh &&& check out the last message he sent. Grrr. And all these while I thought I've been talking to a girl! Now check out his profile picture. I mean, yeah, the display picture shows a girl, righttt? So yeah. I was like WTF.

And this is what I replied like moments ago.

Check out his grammar. I nearly died reading his message. I mean, nevermind. I'm trying my very best to not be like sarcastic anymore. I used to be like the queen of sarcasm? So yeah. Time to change, maybe? I'm finally learning to be nice. And much more patient. And kind. And loving. And everything positive you can think of. You get the drill, right? :D

http://www.givesmehope.com/

I think I'm gonna go emo. Well, maybe not. Deepavali's tomorrow. I feel pretty much normal. Not exactly hyped up or anything. No open house this year. Sorry ya'll. Maybe next week or something? I'll let ya'll know, okay? And Cai Ling, you so gotta let your little sister tag along, alright? :D

I don't know what is up with me right now. I'm having mixed emotions. RAWR. I really really hope mummy lets me out next Tuesday. HAIX. Anw currently tuning to Down by Jay Sean. Fcuking addictive. Baby don't worry, you are my only :DDD

Cupid, you finally got the right one :D I feel so blessed having you in my life. Thanks yaw (:

Super LOLs :D

I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU

♥

I LOVE YOU

I'm like in the midst of playing Restaurant City on Facebook =.='' There. My restaurant. I named it : The Kitchen =.='' I know I know. Like WTH much. You should see what Sadhish named his restaurant. Right Sadhish? LMAO. Oh, anw I forgot to mention something. I skipped school today yaw :D

I'M CURRENTLY ON PARACETAMOL :(

I'm already starting to feel kinda okay. Texts and tons of phone calls and IMs from friends make me feel good :D Thanks everyone! And yeah, I miss ya'll too. Oh, and thanks for the good news, Mages : Hari Terbuka on the 23rd. GRRR.

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Vincci's for RM 159

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I FAILED MY DRIVING TEST. HATERS, you may now rejoice. PFFT. FCUK YOU. Anw, on the other dial, I'm so re-sitting for it, in like fcuking 2 weeks. IDC. I'm so fcuking getting my license before I leave for NS. HAIX. Anw, I was like shit nervous this morning. Tummy ache, tummy cramp, butt cramp, migraine, nausea, and all sorts of crap you can think of larh. You name it, I felt it =.='' My hands were literally shaking mann. Like super WADAPAK cann. I was so fcuking scared that I'd screw up my on-the-road test. But guess what? I EFFING PASSED. Like 17/20. PHEW. And I failed my bukit test instead. The fcuking slope. GRRR. I so know it wasn't my fault. The gear thingy was like effing stuck okay! HAIX WHATEVER LARH. I don't even wanna bother justifying myself or whatsoever :/ I JUST NEED MY FCUKING LICENSE. *cries super loudly*

Super sad larh okay. HAIX HAIX HAIX. Anw the JPJ officers were shit nice to me. TO ME. Try asking the other guys / girls who were there. They hate 'em JPJ officers. HAHAHA :D Too bad I didn't bribe larh. Should have effing bribed them :P Wouldn't have been so hard for me to do so. *wink wink*

Oh, and I sorta befriended this guy (Alvin) in the driving school just now. Well, yeah. There was like only the four of us left, hence, we talked? Haha. He's a super nice guy and stuff larh. Pretty much normal, actually. So, yeah. Then while we were like waiting for our transport to fetch us home and stuff (which arrived after nearly 2 hours =.=''), we went for a drink ; in this restaurant nearby. And then somewhere in between, Alvin started to smoke. I was like okayyyy wtf wtf wtf. And then yeah, I stayed there the whole entire time, watching him as he was smoking (he was sitting right opposite me, btw), &&& inhaling all the second-hand smoke. FCUK HAIX HAIX HAIX FCUK. Anw, the thing is : I DON'T THINK I'M ALLERGIC TO CIGARETTE SMOKE ANYMO. So yeah :/ okay nvm whatever.

Oh, and I finally know how to light up a cigarette. Haha thanks SJ and Alvin :D Like, my first time testing the lighter out. HOW AWESOME kann? HAHA. Was shit scared I might burn my fingers or anything. But it was all good (: I STILL HATE SMOKERS, THOUGH. Anyhoo, I've always wanted to, you know, try to puff like once =.='' HEHE I'm kinda like super scared. So nvm. Pfft.

I'm in the midst of eating Koko Krunch now ♥

Holla! It's like only 9+ and I'm already yawning like nobody's business. Super sleepy yaw. Wanna log off, but then, nvm. I've got someone to keep me company on FaceBook. So yeah. It's all good. Went Raya-ing again just now. Hahaha more Raya cookies! (: Neeeeeeed to start jogging like SOON. Heh. Anw anw anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE SONG SWEE LIAN! Hahaha I hope I got your Chinese name right =.='' We've known each other for like so long now. Since Primary One kann? &&& I always tumpang you back and stuff kann? HAHAHA ZOMGBBQWTF those days larh. Haix. Anyhoo, hope you're having a blast up there in Penang. We'll meet up after SPM, okay? I PROMISE ♥ (btw, curi-ed your picture from your FaceBook profile. Rawr!) JB EAGLES. E!!!! GOOD LUCK for the semi finals tomorrow!!! I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!! ♥♥♥

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Hello world! Hehe. I just got back from Econsave =.='' Tagged along with mummy. Sukanya followed! Weee~ Went there right after school. Like in our uniforms. Heh super embarassing. Grrrr. Bought a freaking new dress. ZOMG. I love it. See see see! Yeah yeah, dust specks on the mirror. Pfft. And yeah, I know my cellphone is hell bulky. Thanks. Ishhh. Anw anw anw, nice kann the dress? I KNOWWW :D hahaha it's like white at the top, purple, and yellow, then black at the bottom. The white part on top is like kinda a lil too big, but then I still LOVE it!!! ((((((((((: MAD LOVE OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG Deepavali is effing next week. Which also effing means that SPM is like effing next month. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I think I'm gonna get some panic attack or something. HAIX. Anyhoo, check out that picture above. Super colourful and pretty, yes? It was like in CS. It's made out of coloured rice, btw. Fcuking big mann. I only like took half a shot of it =.='' Ta-dah. Look! ALL PINK! So not planned, I tell you. Super coincidence. Sukanya's brother took this picture yaw. This was like around 10 plus? After lepaking around the bazaar? I LOOK SO DEAD. SUPER TIRED CANN? =.='' Anw, it was one helluvah day yesterday. Was so much funnn! I left around 5, reached CS at 6, and shopped around till 9. Had dinner at some hawker stall, then walked off to the bazaar nearby. Reached home at 11, totally zonked off (: Didn't really buy much goods. Only got myself a tee and a super chio tank top. SEE? I CAN CONTROL MY SPENDING OKAY! NOT A SHOPAHOLIC ;P

Okay everyone was like wayyy excited for me to blog yesterday. Damnation. You guys love it so much when I trash about school kann? HAIX. Can't wait to get expelled soon =.='' Anyways, I'm gonna make this like real fast. Leaving to Kalai's house in a while. Then we're gonna drive over to fetch Sukanya and then OFF TO CS! Weee~ and to that Deepavali bazaar, for some Deepavali shopping :D So, yeah. Shalini's birthday today. Was supposed to have a party, but things came up in between for her. Some other time, maybe? These are like the only two pictures that I've taken with her =.='' Gotta take more! Hmmph. Anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHALINI! YOU'RE LIKE FINALLY 17! JYEAH! JOIN THE CLUB YAW! :D only one more to go : mages mages mages, you're turning 17 on the first day of spm. boo. Okay this is like on some unrelated note. I was on Facebook today, as usual. Was reading this crappy mail some guy sent. I don't know him. And I'm pretty sure he doesn't know me as well. Plus, he didn't even send me a friend request or anything. Just this stupid message (click to enlarge). He even got like fcuking spelling errors. Bodoh cann? Retard.

I don't see the point of going to school anymore. No teachers. No lessons. No nothing. It feels like I've already actually sat for SPM? Right. Nonetheless, it's actually kinda fun. No teachers to nag around and stuff. So, yeah. We're like pretty much left on our own. Which actually kinda feels good :D I can sleep anytime, anywhere. I swear. This was like around 11? It was superrr warm, and I could still sleep super soundly. On my effing desk somemore. Uncomfy, yeah. But I was super sleepy. LOL. Couldn't help it larh. I remember falling asleep while my friends were completing their Math exercise. Oops. Like I even care. Anw, yeah. My super chio friends took tons of pictures of me sleeping (I freaking left my camera on the table) and they were busy camwhoring among themselves too larh. Hehe. Super noisy people. They woke me up. Had a slight migraine. See? I told them I wasn't feeling good, and they just had to snap more pictures of me. Anyone wanna hire photographers? They're like my ultimate paparazzi(s) in school mann =.='' Okay, so I woke up in the end. They made me camwhore =.='' There, check out my ultra droopy sleepy eyes. Ishhhh people ;P Still feeling absolutely groggy and stuff. But then everyone super semangated to take pictures =.='' I kinda like this picture, though. I look like some single-eyed freakio. YUCKKK. Okay, there. I'M FINALLY UP. Got totally high somewhere in between mann. Tons of ss looking pictures of me. Hehehe. Self-timer is love! (: This two people uhh. The skinniest beyotches in class. Heh. Size zero people. Anw, idk what exactly they were doing larh in class. The last time I turned behind (since they are like seated behind me), I saw both Grace and Sue Mei talking to this bunch of guys who were like hanging along the corridor. Since no one from class is allowed to literally step outta class, Grace actually brought along her chair and sat right at the back door. The Chinese boys are rather hawt, btw. So yeah (: They're actually arm-wrestling =.='' I started the whole effing thing, btw. I was wrestling around with Vicky (I think I won? :D) until I felt sleepy. Again. So then these girlfriends of mine pulak starting wrestling around. You don't wanna mess with Rubby in this game. No, seriously. Anw, as I zonked off on my desk, Vicky was like busy messing up my super chio hair. I was like sorta kacau-ing his goatie and stuff before. So, yeah. Pay back time, maybe? =.='' I shall get back to your goatie Vickyyy! LOOK AT ME. I LOOK SO HAPPY. WANNA KNOW WHY? Some teacher came in announcing that we were allowed to leave school early cos they were having some programme in school planned for the teachers. So yeah. Left school at 12.30 p.m.. The earliest this year! Weeeeee~ We all decided to WALK BACK HOME from school, btw. It was hell fun. Kalai's brother tagged along too. Mages got her mum to fetch her. So only like the 6 of us walked. Oh oh oh, &&& Izzuddin too! Mann, I freaking love this guy larh. Super patient cann. HAHAHA. He was wayyy nice to us. He actually waited for me and my friends (who were like super effing slow) and then even helped us cross the road! awwww ♥ i miss our jogging sessions! SOBS. So yeah, everyone had lunch in my house. And then I was like busy showing off my desktop wallpaper, letting them listen to songs that Sadhish sent me, and even showed them my FaceBook page and blah. Super awesome mann, I hope school ends early like this EVERYDAYYYY :D

Everyone thinks I'm like not feeling well. I was okay until everyone actually made me sick. Fcuk you people. I guess I'm just a little too quiet these days (Grace said so) :/ So yeah. Now I'm sick. Bloody fever. Ahhh it's just the weather. Super warm and stuff. Anw, school was effing fun mann. It's like we're hardly studying anymore. Played Truth or Dare today. Had 3 free periods. So yeah. Ahhhh. Stupid Truth mann. I was fcuking made to confess if I was gonna accept Rayn or not. It was so embarassing. Yeah, it doesn't sound THAT bad, but crap it was FCUKING BAD. Had to say it in front of Vicky somemore. ADUHHHH. Did so much crap larh. The dare(s) were so much fun, although I never once got picked. Phew. Will update this post some other time larh. Super no mood to blog. Nah, I ain't sad. I think I'm just wayyy too happy today. Can't wait for a new beginning (: I'm all hyped up mann. ONE WEEK BABY! ONLY ONE WEEK TO GO! Can't waitttt for you to turun. HAHAHA ((((((((((((((((((((:

Gemini Baby ♥

You have a sophisticated attitude that is also generous and considerate. Your responsible charitable nature may find you attracting guys who want someone to confide in or who makes them feel secure. At a very young age, you developed the type of personality that makes others feel safe and protected. You will carry these qualities into your adult years and, down the road, you'll be a good mom because of them. On the negative side, you can be argumentative and overly emotional, and you usually possess a temper that can make everyone run for cover. You like the kind of girl who is responsible and impeccably dressed and has gorgeous eyes and a great body. Charm, wit and (of course) brilliance could make him the perfect guy for you.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME I LOOK GOOD IN SPECS. Might gonna need to wear specs soon. My eyes hurt so much. They're like slowly turning red. Eyesight is normal, but then again, I ain't sure. Damn. Maybe because I sit wayyy too near my computer? Or I'm just sitting there wayyy too long? AHHHHH FCUKKK. Btw, freaking cut my hair today. I think I feel lighter? LMAO :D

I am yours to keep.

Hey (you-know-who-you-are), get in here.

Pre-test for driving was today. It was horrible. I swear I wasn't ready for the test. Bloody hell. Anyways, I passed. Ahhhh. I've got a dirty secret to tell you about it. It was raining super heavily like fcuk. Hence, the pegawai penguji had to like sit next to me throughout the whole effing thing. Including when I'm parking and stuff. Haix. So, it's like I can't even cheat? AT ALL? Haha. Oh, plus, he never smiles. Or talks. ISHHHH. Anyways, the first part was the on-the-road test, where I fcuking failed miserably. It was hell okay when I practiced. Ishhhh. The engine died while I was about to make a right turn (because I still had it on gear 2), nearly crashed into an oncoming car (thank God the guy next to me actually noticed and then he immediately tekan-ed the brake), and I totally effing forgot to switch on the wiper and the head lights. FCUK. Anyhow, hello. I am alive and lovely, thanks. Hehehe. So yeah. Super obvious kann? I so know I effing failed my test larh deii. Including the bukit lerh! My car freaking went backwards (like down the slope) twice! It came out right at the 4th time. Did it 4 motherfcuking times, cos he didn't let me go until I freaking got it right =.='' But still, only 2 chances to actually pass. So, I know I effing failed. I nearly gave up larh. But then I did my parking, and my three-point-turn awesomely well :D hehe. HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY? I freaking passed my pre-test. Don't ask me how. I just did. The guy was like explaining to me about where I went wrong and stuff and blah at the end of the test larh. And then he added : sepatutnya gagal, tapi saya bagi you pass. I was like OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. Yeah, I literally said that =.='' Like hello? ZOMGWTFBBQ much? Tak bribe langsung okay?!?! AHHHHHH LIFE IS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOD (: now for the JPJ test ..... major haix.

Love is an abstract emotion instead of a true feeling.

I always have a full blown panic attack when a guy asks for my number. Damn. I think I'm finally learning something new everyday. I think I'm slowly changing. I have recently been making it over many bumps and turns in my life. I have a very deep mind, which most guys would not understand. If they'd ever have a glimpse inside, they'd probably suffocate. I'm a dynamic character, constantly reformatting myself to be a better person. I do have standards for my life partner. Most people criticize it, and honestly I don't fcuking care. Believe me, I am not here to impress anyone. I honestly don't give a fcuk on what you think about me. I'm a hard person to figure out and I can never put my feelings into words. Right now, I can't make decisions. Choices drive me nuts. I'm just being honest here. I’m way too nice and most of you actually take it for granted and unfortunately, on my part, I’m a kind soul and I love seeing you hoes smile. I ain't ready for a relationship yet. Please, get it in your brain or something. Right now, to me, love is just an abstract emotion. It isn't a true feeling. YET.

heh. super random mann. it has got nothing with what i'm about to post. wait, i've got nothing to post =.='' oh, btw, vicky totally said i've got like huge, thick lips. and a super long stretched mouth. wtf wtf wtf wtf zomgwtfbbq. i don't like. ishhhh.

Freaking got this on FaceBook =.=''

edited draft.

Class party yesterday was so super awesome! Damn. I think I'm actually gonna miss everyone. Haihhh. Nearly cried, by the way. But then, control larh. Haha :D Anw, class party and Ah Kaw's birthday yesterday! No one freaking bought him a cake =.='' So then me and Anis and Kalai got him a cake from Secret Recipe. Not the whole cake larh (told ya I'm super pokai), only got him like 2 slices of it. Better than nothing, right? &&& it's the thoughts that count, RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT? So yeah. Class party was effing awesome. It was in Jusco, by the way. Like, yeah. ALL THE TIME. Cos it's like the closest to our area? PFFT. Planned to go like around 5 plus, but then no one to hang out with and stuff. So, yeah. Hmmph. Went around 7 (no thanks to my dad who came home fashionably late to fetch me there) and then waited for Andrew and co. in Starbucks. Wanted to get myself a Frap, too bad, NO MONEY. FCUKKK. Anw anw anw, Ah Kaw said he loved the cake. I bought my favourite flavour for him =.='' CHOC INDULGENCE!!! i don't know what he likes, okay? So not my faulttt~ Haha. And then yeah, the party was in KFC.

Birthday boyyy!!!

Oh yeah, we already planned to like have our party in KFC like super long time ago. So yeah then I went to check around KFC and stuff (since I'm like one of the earliest to reach). It was shit crowded mann. It was like fcuking crowded larh. But then I still went to like, y'know, look around, to reserve places and stuff. And you know what? The effing manager freaking told Grace off. Grace was the one who went in first. She got told off, so then I totally went in to help out larh. Fcuk the guy there mann. I was like trying my effing best to reserve the place there, and the guy just went NO. I tried flirting with the guy and all, but NO. Oh btw, that guy's English is like so damn super broken somemore. Babi hutan. And then Grace decided that we go to Pizza Hut. Again. Like last year. Pizza Hut's like totally next to KFC. Fcuk Pizza Hut, crowded also. Pizza Hut's wayyyy smaller than KFC. So, imagine larh. Felt super fcuked up. Waited for the rest to come until we finally made a decision : WE'RE SO EATING IN KFC. We effing got separated in KFC, and we were like sitting at different places to like reserve some space for our friends. One person, one table. Cool or what? HAHAHAHA. Everyone was like totally staring at us larh. I was like screaming around like one mad cuckoo head getting the boys to actually reserve some places =.='' Yeah, it was my idea, by the way : The ''one person, one table''. Jyeah (:

I know, am I awesome or AM I AWESOME?!?! =.=''

After we kinda like secured a few places of our own, we (a bunch of my friends) went out to buy our form teacher a birthday gift. I already promised him like 4 months back that I'd get him something. So, yeah. Cikgu Zairul better like the shirt we got him mann!!! Kalai chose the colour and stuff. Super chio larh. Hope teacher can actually grow into it or something. It was kinda a lil' too big for him. Hehehe.

Sue Mei (: ANISSS!!!! :D

Grace ; PFFT. SHE MADE ME DO THIS. SO FCUKING LALA-ISH.

YO TO THE 5 SCIENCE PEEPS! : IF YOU GOT MY PIC, SEND IT OVER TO ME YAW! EMAIL EMAIL EMAIL / MSN MSN MSN!!! OR IF YOU'RE GONNA BRING YOUR CELL TO SCHOOL, EFFING LET ME KNOW! THANKS!!! :D P / S : This boy-magnet thingy is getting fcuking serious. The waiters in KFC fcuking asked Grace for my number. THEY EFFING WANTED MY NUM!!! Like there were 4 - 5 Indian waiters who were actually flirting around and stuff. Super annoying cann!!! They kept turning heads, looking at us, watching us and all. Us, as in, me and Kalai. IDK larh, I wasn't actually looking at them, but Kalai told me all this. SUPER LIFELESS CANN!!! FCUK 'EM!!! Oh, and they were like so bloody damn freaking irritating larh. They actually tried to like kpo and masuk into the pictures I was taking with my friends. SO FCUKING ANNOYING KANN? ISHHHH. I was like screaming ''FCUKERS!!!'' at them before I left. HAHAHA SERVE THEM RIGHT. Me and Kalai were like : ''Not coming back here for the next 100 years.'' HAHAHA.

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Humour of the day =.=''

tak faham? nevermind =.='' (idk why i posted this up anyways T.T)

I wanna blog. Got mood, but then I'm sleepy. Slept at 3 last night. 2 plus, I think. Urgh. Nevermind. Got up at 6. Fcuking 6. Mum just had to bawl at me to get outta bed, and get changed for temple. Temple. Temple. Temple. Aduhhh. I admit it. My life is fcuked up. Well, not that I hate going to temple or whatsoever (in fact, I love to), but at 6? HAIX. So, yeah. Just got home moments ago. It's 3 now. Had lunch and all there. Anw, I was suppose to blog about the outing (Mel, Pritha, and me) kann? MALAS LARHHH. Just stay tuned for it, okay? Right now, I've got something even better to say. You know, right now, I think I totally got a boy-magnet stuck onto me somewhere. LIKE SERIOUSLY. Fcuking not being braggy here. Seriously. Like seriously okay! I've never had like boys (PLURAL OKAY!) liking me at the same time. I KNOW ZOMGWTFBBQ WADAPAK KANN? I know, I'm shocked too. Guys actually fall for me =.='' or maybe not. Okay, nevermind. So, yeah. I'm not gonna elaborate on who's in the middle of like, you know, trying to get me and stuff. But what I know is, I can''t make my mind up. I know. Shoot me. I just don't know. I just can't make up my mind. Gila weii. 4 guys in one go. You say larh. Lagi got timing one okay! If I don't answer by then or if I keep 'em waiting and stuff, then I can totally like forget it. So, yeah. IDK IDK IDK IDK IDK. That's what I pretty much told them =.='' I think I like someone. But then again, I'm wayyyy too scared to like get into a relationship again. Cos I've always been wanted for ***. Like serious shit. My exes are some despo shit people larh. Will talk about them some other time. BUT at least I'm smart enough and cukup waras to not have anything done with them larh (: GO ASK MY EXES ABOUT ME : THEY'LL SAY I'M HELL BORING. And I'm proud of that. I'm still a VIRGIN, you loser! Stupiak ex boyf. You owe me banyak2 cash too :/ FCUK YOU TO THE MAX, I HOPE YOU DIE IN A SUPER PAINFUL WAY. THEN I SHALL DANCE AWAY ON YOUR GRAVE AND PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG (: Woah. Sounds like a plan already. I can't wait for him to die already :D

super random. curi-ed from someone's photobucket =.=''

P / S : I've been getting stupid text messages from this anonymous. Fcuking not telling me his name. And I effing don't know how he got my number!

Go on, feel free to stalk him : 010-8224206

Lemme know if you get to know who and where's his from and all. If you manage to find out, I'll belanja you makan, okay? Not mamak, I'll bring you somewhere classy. You help me find out now, I'll treat you after Deepavali, alright? (I'm super pokai now, gotta wait for angpow =.='')

I BETUL BETUL PROMISE TAW. GO CALL NOW. YOU DAPAT KENAL, I BELANJA :D

So colourful kann? Haha. I'm kinda feeling happy right now. Don't quite know why. Oh, wait, maybe cos the super hawt priest from the temple smiled at me!!!!! :D Yeah yeah, priest punn I tak lepas, DHISHHH! (: hehe Off to Jusco in a while (: class party! zomg i so can't waittt~ BYEBYEBYE BABY (:

Hello! I've got so much to blog about! So much I tell you! But you know what? I'm saving all of 'em for tomorrow! So, stay tuned, alright? Anw, Melissa and Pritha came over today. Over to my crib yaw :D had a blastttt! Will totally blog about it tomorrow. Promise! Oh, and by the way ; PATRICKKKK : HAPPPYYY BIRTHDAYYYY! (: See? This is totally for you, alright? My so-called inspiration larhh you =.=''

(video inspired by the one i did for sadhish) scroll down if you dunno what i'm actually talking about

So, yeah. Happy happy birthday Patttwickkkk! HAVE A WICKED ONE, AITE? (I know I look like crap. Thank you.) I LOOK BETTER IN PERSON, Y'KNOW. SERIOUSLYYYY!!! :D