Dear Heart,

WHY HIM?

So there's this boy, and he'll never know how much he means to me. & it's one of those awkward moments where I go, like, '' OH SHIT! '' ; I'm in love with him. FML

Dang! My brain's fucked up beyond all repair. Well, it is no secret that the best thing about secrets is secretly telling someone your secret. Thereby, I'm basically adding another secret to my secret collection of secrets, secretly.

Mind fucked yet? Boo yeah. Okay, I mean, people these days ... when you say one thing to them, and then BAM! the whole world knows. Le sigh. However, we all need that one person in our lives who we can tell everything to and trust with our lives. Otherwise, life becomes so lonely and painful. & that is exactly why, I write - because no one listens. FML

Oh, well.

Guy friends are always the best. They're hilarious, cool, and fun to hang out with. Until of course, you start to like one. Like, seriously. I wake up every morning now and say '' I don't like him anymore '', then the next day I see him and that gorgeous smile, and the feelings I had before comes back all over again. FML

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Y'know ; I've been told that I'm pretty good at fixing everyone else's problem, but I'm always being lost when it comes to myself. As a matter of fact, when it comes to relationships or such issues ; also, including the fact that I have never been on a proper date before. FML

Loving a person that does not love you back is like watching a star you can't reach. Err, almost like a never-ending war between your head and your heart. It's like, you just keep sinking a little deeper into your pool of misery everyday and nobody even sees it. FML

It's much easier to be with someone you can't love, than to admit you love someone you can't have. & you know what sucks about falling for a guy you're not right for? You fall anyway because you think this time it might turn out to be different. It sucks even more to know that you need to let go, but you can't - because you're waiting for the impossible to happen. FML

I've been told - If you do not go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no. If you do not step forward, you'll always be in the same place.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.

I must not let it affect me.


it's affecting me

FML

P / S : Lust for ink. An anchor on my wrist, perhaps?